Your soul is painted the color grey, which embodies the characteristics of elegance, humility, respect, reverence, stability, subtlety, wisdom, strong emotions, balance, and cancellation. Grey falls under the element of Water, and symbolizes the moon, tide, ebb and flow.
Been a bit. But at least some "progress" has been made.
I finally quit my job at Safeway. Parents were much more understanding then I was expecting. I'm very grateful though for their cooperation, because I can't really express how glad I am to be out of that fucking shithole.
Back on isotretinoin again, which I'm hoping will finish off my skin problems for good. I already have enough other embarrassing physical issues to deal with; it would be nice to finally get rid of one.
Other than that, there hasn't been anything amazing happening with my life. But now that I no longer work at Safeway I think I'm actually in the position to accomplish something... anything. And if I fail now, then I have nothing to blame except myself.
I'm going to take one last semester at SCC so I can complete my CSU requirements, and maybe finish off the IGETC requirements in the summer. This will also allow me to be insured under my parents, which is good since I no longer have any job benefits (not that they'd cover much anyway those cheap motherfuckers).
I'll end up going to some new school for a real education in fall of 07, although I'm not sure where I want to go yet. I'm realizing that price is probably going to be more of an issue than anything, since neither I nor my parents are rolling in dough. But as for now, San Francisco Academy of Art doesn't look too bad. Not super far from home, affordable, and I know someone who's going to be going at the same time who needs a roommate.
But I haven't done enough research to determine where the best place for me to try to go is yet, or if I even have what it takes to make it. Although I'm sure I'll discover these things soon enough.
That's all for now.
Don't go hitting your friends in the face with a wiimote.
Pisces(Febraury [sic] 19-March 20) Why do cigarette-makers put ammonia in their product? For the same reason that drug addicts use ammonia to turn cocaine into crack: it helps render the nicotine and cocaine into a gas, making it easier for the lungs to absorb them, and dramatically amplifying the high. I hope you can find a healthy, legal, and metaphorical equivalent to this process in the coming weeks, Pisces. You have both a poetic liscense and an astrological mandate to squeeze at least three times more fun and insight out of every single thing you do. It's the Intensity Season.
So basically I have an astrological mandate (sounds authoritative) to get super high. Like, three times as high as the guy next to me. At least.
First was Science of Sleep. It was the hotness. Gael García Bernal is awesome and funny as hell, and I'm straight and all, but gotta say the man is looking good to boot. Better looking than the female lead, which always amuses me since it tends to be the other way around. This picture pretty much sums up why you need to see it though:
Other movie was the Grudge... TWOOOOOOOO. Kind of goes without saying it wasn't as good as Science, or even Grudge One for that matter, but it still proved to be fairly entertaining. High point of the movie was ironically the comic relief in the form of "Old Man on Bus". If you've seen it you know exactly what I mean. The high point of the event in the more general sense though was far superior. Behind us were some literal 12 year olds, who were incessantly screaming and yelping like retards throughout the movie. With us was Ami, who happens to be of Japanese descent and has long black hair. She slouched out of sight of the 12 year olds into her chair, then turned herself over and lay in wait. When the music got to a particularly spooky part, she flies up out of her chair and yells "BOO!"; 12 year olds freak the fuck out: "OH MY GOOOD AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!" Thank you PG-13 rating.
Last day of my vacation is tomorrow. Bleh. Talked to one of my photoshop teachers I had at SCC, and from the information he provided me, I think it's going to take me a bit longer to get a creative-type-related-to-my-degree-job than I had hoped. So thinking I'll probably try to get another regular crap job to replace Safeway in the meantime. I'd be hard pressed to get a job that's actually worse than my current one, so nowhere to go but up... or sideways. Not down though.
Oh, got some new jeans too. And they're hellllllla tight. Girls are going to look at me, and then run to the bathroom to throw up. Well, maybe they already did that, but now it's going to be for different reasons. Thinspiring.
Whew. Two updates in one week? I'm spent. Take your comic and go home. Nite.
It's been quite a while since a meaningful entry, so here we go.
Long story short, shit has been pretty wack lately, in almost every way possible. However, I've come to a point where I can no longer just coast along doing whatever school program, or get by working whatever shitty dead-end job; it's time to become an adult 4realz, which is exciting and at the same time terrifying.
I've never believed in any concept as silly as "guaranteed", but for the first time in my life I feel like everything is totally up in the air, and that if I can't overcome my lack of true initiative it will actually be the end of me.
But even though I don't think it will be easy to get where I want to be, the one and maybe the only thing I have faith in is myself. I am determined to become a better person and improve my life, and I honestly believe I have the talent and the wits to do so. So to anyone who has ever doubted me:
1. Fuck you 2. God damn it I'll show you
I've been at Safeway for slightly over a year now, and suffice to say I fucking hate that place. But having been there for over a year, I qualify for paid vacation which I am now taking. During my vacation, I'm going to look for a new job. And though I doubt I'll find one within the span of my leave, I will get a new job. I have seen the broken and the damned, and Safeway is their home. I will not stay among them no matter what it takes.
I've already begun, but since I pissed away the summer and now part of the fall, I really need to kick it into overdrive and get retardedly good at art and animation in a very short span of time. There will be a montage. Things will be "taken to the limit".
I will buy new clothes and manage my physical appearance so that women will actually want to have sex with me. There will be a montage.
I will go to the gym and improve my constitution beyond that of a quadriplegic with AIDS. There will probably not be a montage because Rocky already did that shit.
Any and all naysayers can continue to talk their shit but my resolve will not falter.
I will not fail.
But that's enough solemn declarations for now. Time for silly things.
This is a video for one of Weird Al's new songs done by John K. and the gang. And it was animated in Flash. FLASH! Not that I really doubted Flash was capable of producing full animation, but seeing the result is very impressive.
This is just funny.
And a comic.
Guess that's it for now. Get to wake up and go the dentist tomorrow, so time to get some sleep so I can prepare for all that fun.
how would you rule the world? -Ruling the world would be a pain in the ass. Eff that.
where would you like to live if you could live anywhere? -I don't have enough experience to determine where a good place to live would be. Here is ok.
Stranded on a raft in the middle of the ocean with only a stick of gum and matches, what would you do(mandie drank a little can you tell?)? -Chew gum and wait for rescue?
What kind of animal would you be? -A sloth.
do you believe in ghosts? -No.
is there someone lurking in the shadows of your house as you do this? -I hope not.
Do you have a big weiner? why or why not? -Yes. Favor of a powerful deity.
are you afraid of death? Afraid of dying before I get a good return out of life is more like it.
how old were you when you last wet the bed? -I can't remember wetting the bed.
if you could have sex anywhere where would it be(mandie's a horny drunk)? -The haunted house at Disneyland.
are you a talkative drunk? -Very.
what do you act like when you have too much cafiene? -Normal.
do you think mesntration is gross? why or why not? -Not really. It's a normal female bodily function.
Would you rather get high, drunk, or have sex? -All three at the same time.
what do you think of the 80s? -Take On Me.
do you collect anything? if so, what? -Money.
where is your safe place? -The bathroom.
what style do you love to wear the most? -T-shirt and pants.
do you dance when nobody's looking? -Oh hell yeah.
what do you want to do more than anything? -Have a successful career in animation.
what are you waiting for to do it? -Motivation to stop being a failure.
how many times have you moved? -Twice.
what are you allergic to? -I don't know. Not nuts though, so I'm ok.
what was your favorite movie last year? -Fight Club?
what is it now? -Still Fight Club?
do you like your papaya with lime? -I put the lime in the coconut.
are you in control of the things that happen to you? -If you're asking if I think I exist outside the reach of a causal nature, then no.
what is love to you? -When your hapiness is dependent on the hapiness of another.
if you could go to any planet what planet would you go to? -Earth. It's got oxygen and an atmosphere, and it's not burning hot or freezing cold. It also doesnt kill you instantly with it's gravity like Juptier would.
what was your most bizarre hairstyle? -A certain highly asymmetrical shag cut I had when my hair was still pitch black. It was bad, haha.
what song do you dance to best? -Junior Senior - Move Your Feet
what band/group did you once love and now hate and are embarrased of? -Honestly can't think of any particular band. Maybe individual singles, but I was never really into their respective bands so I don't know if that counts.
at what age were your pants first explored by another? -17? 18? Honestly can't remember.
if you were the last person in the world what would you do? -Attempt to read a book and subsequently break my glasses.
have you ever had a crush on a teacher or friend's parent? -Yeah.
what animal do you most relate with? -Cat? Or sloth again because this question is similar to the other one?
what person of the same sex are you are attracted to(like actress or whatever)? -Brandon Routh (the new Superman) is pretty sexy.
what is the only album/band can you listen to over and over and never tire of? hmm.. hard.. chilli peppers or gorillaz -Maybe Cake. It's pretty hard to never get tired of something though.
whats a movie that you watched and said "it was way better than the book"? -I can't read.
do you hate it when things are way too organized? -I think there's an optimal level of organization, but there is a limit going both directions.
would you rather know what happens next or do you crave suprise? -Depends what I'm being surprised about. But entertainment wise I enjoy surprise.
do you think outside of your own culture? -I invented the internet.
when your down in the dumps are you angry at everyone who isnt? -I'm just angry at the situation.
do you avoid stepping on snails because its gross or cause they are cute? -Because I don't feel compelled to destroy something if it doesn't disturb me.
what was your biggest problem going through puberty? -Acne.
if you could be any Pokemon what one would you be? -Mewtwo.
What kind of tea do you like best? -Peach tea.
rain or shine? -Rain.
do you poop? -No; I defecate.
what about bob!? -I hear he's taking that "Enzyte" stuff. Looks really crazed. I'd avoid him if I were you.
whats worse, stuffy or runny nose (pick ONE or die)? -Runny. So fucking annoying.
whats the sexiest instrument? -Saxophone.
isn't shaving a pain in the ass? -Yeah. If only the lumberjack look was more socially acceptable.
would you rather have the powers to breath under water or fly in the sky? -Fly, duh. You'd rather breathe under water Mandie? God that's retarded. What are you, Aquaman?
what did you dream last night? -I can't remember.
what kind of chip dip do you like? -The guacamole at Chipotle. It's off the chain.
do you poop your pants on airplanes? -No, I use the bathroom like a civilized human.
do you shake your coconuts? -Until the nut comes out.
So I finally have a checking account/debit card/credit card under my own name now. I used my newly acquired powers to buy geeky shirts from the internet. Yay.
So summer is underway now, and I haven't really done much except work and sit on my ass. I should really get crackin' artistically. I've heard that if you're not at least "pretty good" by the time you reach about 24 you're fucked, so time to get movin'.
Haven't been able to get a hold of my old animation instructor, so not really sure what's happening there. I figure I should probably start doing my own research into schools regardless, and maybe I'll be able to get in touch with him come fall.
I don't really want to end up taking more than a year off of school; losing momentum career wise is dangerous, and I'd sooner die than work at Safeway the rest of my life.
Want to buy a drawing tablet soon. I think my capacity for motivation involving almost anything is contingent on my ability to perform the activity sitting in front of a computer. Sad, but easier to roll with it rather than fight it. Once I get over the initial and inevitable sucking period that comes with taking a long hiatus from artistic matters maybe I'll start posting my very own pictures for you to view on the intertron. Wouldn't that be exciting?
Not much else to report really. Still a fashion/cooking/relationship challenged loser who lives at home.
I could use a shower, so I'll leave you with what few pictures I took while in Vegas along with some random comic to spice things up a bit.
Some horse/building thing I thought looked cool.
Good reason not to fall asleep in the presence of rambunctious drunks. Sorry Brandon.
And lastly, the straight most pimpin'-est ride that has ever existed. This was taken out the window of Jose's moving car; from the moment I saw it I knew photographic record of this car had to be created.